“These boots are made for walkin’ and that’s just what they’ll do..”
I can still hear Nancy Sinatra singing this on our old record player as myself and my siblings danced carefree in the living room. Every weekend this song was played and we danced and sang our little hearts out.
Selling all my shoes and boots on Facebook recently highlighted I had quite the shoe collection. When you live an unconscious life, as I have for most of mine, you do things without realizing the reason behind your actions. Whenever I was feeling stressed or low and needed a pick me up I would often buy a pair of shoes, of course I rarely needed them, but they made me feel good. At least I believed they made me feel good, nothing beats walking in a pair of heels. I have not worn heels in about 2 years now and think these would kill me now if I had them on for more than 30 minutes.
I was an unconscious buyer, I was looking for happiness in material possessions. But if somebody had said that to me just 2 years ago I would have said, “what the hell are you talking about?” I was buying items not because I needed them, but because I needed a treat, I deserved it. I worked hard and these shoes were my reward.
Ironically it was a pair of boots that led to a slap in the face and a complete life change. Let me explain.
Walking into change
Over 15 years as a contractor, many supervisors, but same job. This is a traveling and thus expenses job. In my rush to complete my late expense claim I inadvertently include a pair of boots. Now every supervisor before my last one would have called me a silly bugger and there would be an immediate correction to expense, not this last supervisor though. Don’t ask me her motivation, it is still bizarre to me, but that was the end of the job. This was a skilled IT job, traveling the world for a very large American company, being seen as an expert in what I did. When I initially found out I was furious, spitting bullets, I couldn’t believe such a thing could happen to me.
The next morning, after quite a sleepless night, I was calmer, but still in shock. Needless to say this supervisor was getting called all sorts of names, many beginning with F and B. Many phone calls later, nobody can do anything about this, but they all express shock that this has happened. Sunday morning I wake up with a great sense of YeeHaa, I’m free, I’m done, no more corporate America.
There were a few ironies with the circumstances –
- this happened the day after I received my first yoga certification. Lesson – time to move on
- the cause was a pair of boots. Lesson – time to walk out of one life into another
- the boots were bought from Soul Studio. Lesson – The Universe has a great sense of humor
Replacing the ego with the message
When I reflected on this I laughed out loud. Talk about a shake and wake up call from the Universe. My ego was heavily involved Friday and Saturday, how dare they accuse me of stealing. I’m an honest upfront person, I’m not a thief. I’m a silly bugger putting a work deadline ahead of time spent getting expenses right, but not a thief. In my reflection I saw what I was doing to myself, my interiority was suffering by my reactions to this situation, I took a breath and stopped. Get control of yourself girlfriend, it’s only a job. This is how I managed to wake up lighter and happier on Sunday.
We may not always be able to control all the situations around us, but we can certainly control how we react to them. Do you want to create hostility and negativity inside yourself or do you want to be joyfully and balanced?
I consciously chose joyful and balanced with this situation and have been doing the same ever since.
You are responsible for how you react to everything in your life, good and bad.
I call these my million dollar boots and I wear them with pride!